21st birthday post

So it is my 21st birthday =)
Quite emo as I had just lost my puppy one week before.

就祝大家开开心心一家人健健康康 =)
真不敢相信 21 岁的我愿望那么简单。
其实，简简单单的幸福才是最可贵不是吗？ ^__^
还有就是终于可以堂堂正正跟 7-11 的 counter 说要买 CXXXXX 了
虽然暂时没有机会用到不过也是很爽 xD
就这样啦 >.<
很高兴有一大群好朋友！
call 来的 msg 来的 pm 的
全都非常感激！
大学的中学的matrik的全部全部！ <3 <3
(女朋友列？很忙啊摇准备考试都不得空理我 T.T)

十月二十八-致 DENDI

今天是个平凡的日子
却是不平凡的一天
原本应该写一篇上怡保参加亿赏姐姐婚礼喜事的文章..
不过决定延后写了.. 实在是对不起..好不好意思 @@

今天可谓大喜大悲。
没有准备几个小时的考试竟然会做，就整个人兴奋到乱跳好像猴子一样，真的是有够下水。
晚餐时分，妈妈 call 了一通电话，很凝重地和我说 dendi 死了，一时之间反应不过来，过后一股伤感油然而生，慢慢地如雪球越滚越大，直到过后另有一件极伤心事发生，如火上加油，乃一发不可收拾。
想起 Dendi 以往那活泼可爱捣蛋顽皮无辜胆小的模样只能在回忆里缅怀，心一阵绞痛。（已经不想再多着墨，今晚已经哭得太多太多，虽说和 dendi 只有两个月多的感情，那已经够了，太够了，足够令我想起和他所经历的一切，只想说，此时此刻，我很想再和他一起。）

想起一些话语，受伤的心残酷地被二度伤害。
知道是无心之失，但人人都知道事实往往是在不经意间透露。
有那么一瞬间（就是一瞬间而已）我不知道以后该怎么面对你，没想到一直以来给你的感觉是如此。
只能说对不起，我也不知道还能做什么...

一个礼拜后的今天，就是我的生日。
如果说这是迈入二十一前的洗礼，我可以选择不要么

PHONE for nowadays

http://www.trueactivist.com/after-i-saw-this-i-put-down-my-phone-and-didnt-pick-it-up-for-the-rest-of-the-day/

Yes I despise smart phone.
I used to be one of them, playing an Ipad while waiting for food to be served or so on.
Yet, not after my mum scolded me and forbid it.
I really thanks my mum for fixing my bad habit.
And now,
I use my eyes to see the world, not through a camera lens.
I use my heart to feel the world, not through social networking.
The concrete happiness I feel belongs to me.

Phone is merely a device to connect people.
Not to wreak havoc on life.

*sometimes I do sincerely feel glad for that I do not own an apple, I am gratified with my orange.*

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

YES! Here come my new family member
DENDI  !!!
He has actually came for 2 days yet I am not free to blog.
Well, welcome to my family, this is the first time we ever breed a dog and it appears to be a challenging task indeed.. >__<
Hope u stay happily and healthily here, Dendi.
=)

HOLIDAY

WELL, I had been in the abyss of relaxation for the past one month and now I am back finally.. @_@
Realizing that my holiday is actually going to end, it absolutely brings a spasm of sorrow to me and that's also one of the reason I am back here just to reassure myself that my blog is still very lively. LOL

Finally grab some time to finish reading one of my novel which was bought using the book voucher couple of times ago and had been forsaken and almost forgotten in my room.
"Clockwork angel". Yeah, it is the prequel to the movie being aired now ----- "City of Bones".
If you would have noticed, only books with elements of fantasy such as existence of vampires, Nephilim etc could intrigue me. (which obviously means that I am still a teenager despite the fact that I am stepping to my third year in my degree very soon T.T)
Having too long time disengaged from English books render me baffled most of the times at first, slowly I am able to catch up with the pace and when I finally know what is the whole story about, many in the story already dies lol @__@

Not only that, I also start to pursue hong kong drama which much to my surprise brings a lot of mirth to me. HAHAHA, consists of many yellow jokes I could say LOL

The holiday is going to end soon and I would be back to the embrace of UM. (embrace of my gf too *shy shy*)
hope the coming sem is going to shine like a star!
and I would certainly work hard on it!
(well, it is always easier talking than doing lol)

炮声轰轰

最近看了友人的文章，觉得写法不错，因此有意效仿，贻笑大方还请多多指教。

#1

在有一个森林里，美其名hujan tropika，即是热带雨林，住着各种动物，动物之王老虎常自称自己地盘拥有各种类型的动物，常到亚尔逊森林或非洲草原跟诸强面会之时引以为荣。

最近，老虎大王想要落实教育发展大绿图，旨在提升动物们的教育素质，进而加强教育水平能与其他地方媲美。看好哦，是与其他地方媲美哦哈哈
纲要包括：
1）逐渐增加老虎语的课程，想要各种动物学习老虎语，并减少自己语言的学习范围，以后会发生如兔子吼叫，老鼠抓人等的离奇事件。

奇怪的是，一方面却在高等学府等设立固打制，限制自己地盘的人才就读。
许多猴子，小羊每天上报，投诉申请不到学府就读。
而许多披着羊皮的狼却得过且过顺利入读？
相信不久之后的将来，该森林的教育素质肯定能够借此提升哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈。

*看后评：当一个国家领袖对自己的国民实行双重标准，只能说这个国家永远只能固步自封，永远不能进步。
*请别小看兔子，老鼠们的能力，他们虽然弱小，仍会誓死捍卫自己的母语。要知道，一根稻草就能压死骆驼。

#2
森林里轰轰列列的。
因为有部电影即将上映，电影内容涉及侏罗纪时代时恐龙如何控制森林及各动物间的抗争等等。
被勒令重新检讨后才能上映。
举世哗然。
理由是 ——— 题材敏感。
另外有部类似的电影即将播放，题材相似不过所针对的角色相左。
却没被禁播。

*神经病，侏罗纪都已经过去那么久了，还在怕恐龙复生？
*又是双重标准，后果自负。
*历史是历史，如果一方连面对历史的勇气都没有，只能说你实在食古不化，永远是个失败者。

YEAH HOLIDAY STARTSSSS~~

hahahaha.. really damn gan jeong when I went for the external paper - exam P just now.
as all of you might know, I failed once and it really exerts a lot of pressure upon my shoulder.
XD
spent my 2 hours+ waiting for the exam (no available seats) and finished 1 hour before the due-time LOL
goyang kaki inside =P
yeah xDD

胜不骄，败不馁！
上次的失败，我这次引以为戒。
果然皇天不负有心人！LOL
anyway happyyyy laaarrrrr xD

minions fever

Seriously, I don't know what is so special about these minions until everyone queue for them for few hours in midnight and showing off in facebook. Sorry if you are reading this and sorry if you are one of my friends if my words have offended you.


Yet, I still need to say, yes, for me, you are only showing how immature you are. I am not saying you cannot buy these minions, but to queue for it in midnight and for few hours is just ridiculous and at the same time I am pretty sure you are going to neglect those bananas within 1 month after the fever ebb.


For me, I don't see any cuteness in the minions which could grab my attention. As for me, it's just a banana with 3 hairs on the top. (is just a personal view)


During my childhood time, McD used to promote happy meal with hello kitty too. People that time are being rational. The first intention they go McD is to quench their hunger, then they find the Hello Kitty way too attractive, then they buy it. Well, this is totally normal.
Nowadays, people go McD just for the minions?


Famine 30 had just passed.
There are billions of people starving, struggling for food whole around the world, while teenagers in M'sia spending their money on some items which food comes along as some sort of 'by-product'. I have no idea how the people who bought a trolley of the minions are going to finish their burger.
This is absolutely and thoroughly absurd for me.


Guys and gals, you dont need these items. Children should be the main target group of this promotion.
The minions are not meant for you.
Imagine how the children are going to be disappointed when they are told that the minions are out of stock.
Imagine when you were one of them.


If your energy and time knows no bound, please read more newspaper and study more. Our country is now facing a lot of problems.
Ethnic relationship, unfair treat from government.. etc.. if everyone who queue for the minions could fully utilise their spirits in asserting some of the issues, there wont be so many photos of 4A's students flooding newspaper everyday recently.


Well, it's just my personal view.
It's your freedom to buy something anyway, I couldn't deny it.
Just to hope that my essays could trigger you to think twice before buying the HAPPY MEALS (so called happy meal because it is for children), and hope to reduce the amount of minions you are going to purchase (from 10 to 5 etc), then I would be very happy already =)
PEACE

——————九家之书————

刚睡了一个他妈的长觉，8点吃完晚餐倒在床上到现在（11点多）
原本打算 9 点起床读书，well... okay
=__=||
可能是自然反应，身体听到要读书自然而然转去冬眠模式 LOL
很 pek cek 的同时，不要紧
起床了得到的不是温暖的问候，而是冷冰冰的怪罪。 =）
唠叨完了，进入正题吧

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九家之书

传说中千年神兽想要成为人类时所需的“秘籍”。

不管是九月灵那荡气回肠的爱情，还是崔江置那清清纯纯的爱情，都让人感动满分 T.T
不是很喜欢结局，理想中的结局是男主与女主能够在一起吧，而不是到了几百年后以不一样的人再见。=（

人性的多元在这套戏被彻底放大。
崔江置身为一个非人类的角度来看待这个世界。
这个世界从以前到现在，不就都是这样残酷的么？
而每一个人仍然活着，是因为每个人都有着自己活着的理由。
就算残酷的世界带来的是不幸，些许朋友间，爱人间，家人间的温情，就能驱之而去。
融入了不少笑点在悲伤的情节里头，哈哈，所代表的就是这个意思吧，无论如何悲伤，都要欢笑 ^__^

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突然超级喜欢 MISS A 的秀智！
哈哈哈！
被封为“国民初恋”的她确实拥有一些初恋般的感觉
纯纯的脸，一点点的兔牙，哈哈哈~~
她超级可爱的啦啦啦啦 >__<

HOME

omg...
hmmm...
I was supposed to post this yesterday.
Currently submerged in a pool of mingled feelings.
Yesterday was my last night to stay in my college.
yeah KOLEJ TUANKU KURSHIAH or THIRD RESIDENTIAL COLLEGE in English.
I am going to leave the place where I had been staying for 2 years.

A surge of sadness triggered a flip of old memories.
From the first day I stepped into here, the next day when MHS or MINGGU HALUAN SISWA or what what which I forgot, ..... until yesterday I stepped out from the place.
The only thought that conjures up in my thoughts : "TIME FLIES."
I have now officially ended my second year in my university life.

It is the place where I met a lot of friends and made uncountable laughters.
The memories are great =)
Maybe sometimes there were some bickers among us, generally I don't think it affected our friendship. haha..
For me, I had spent my 2 years with awesome people (though sometimes I did really think 'SHIT, THESE BASTARDS ALL KNOW PLAY ONLY, NIAMA LIMBEH WAN STUDY OSO CANNOT'.) LOL
Just hope that you all could feel the same as me. ^__^
Goodbye KK3, you are the best!
KURSHIAH KURSHIAH THIRD THIRD!

and yes, of course.
I start to miss my girlfriend already.
emooooooo....
>__<
To neglect girlfriend in some place alone is really not a good way for a gentlemen especially someone like me to express his chivalry.
yuckss~

莫忘初衷

这个世界上
没有一样东西是十全十美的
无论是友情，爱情还是生活历程或是考试成绩。
如果因为期间发生的挫折就轻言放弃
那你永远只会是个输家
要记得，

莫忘初衷。

莫忘初衷 莫忘初衷
别忘那一年 那一天出发时心中的梦
难免会受伤 注定要心痛
别忘了还有我陪你
You'll never alone

这些年如何走过 点滴都在心中
人生这一杯酒 滋味已经尝够
每个人都不容易 但也都走到这里
我们就看看命运 还要安排什么
莫忘初衷 莫忘初衷
别忘那一年那一天出发时心中的梦
难免会受伤 注定要心痛
别忘了还有我陪你 
You'll never alone

老鹰该展翅飞翔 怎能安于鸟笼
天空还很宽敞 还在等待彩虹
等雨雪风霜经过 梦才能成熟结果
就干掉这杯酒 敬有始有终
莫忘初衷 莫忘初衷
别忘那一年那一天 
出发时心中的梦
难免会受伤 注定要心痛
别忘了还有我陪你 
You'll never alone
You'll never alone
别忘 还有我 陪你
You'll never alone

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GXCqD01A8Ak

@@ waiting EXCITEDLY for final exam

ahhahaha finally killer paper is over xDD
damn happpyyyy~~~~~
I am reinvigorated all over again! recharged! LOL
haha, would like to off myself for one or two days @@ let the minds wander bleakly in this freaking hot weather.
@@ ....
and brace myself for the arrival of final exam haha >.<
YESS!

Met a good lecturer this semester whose name is Mr. Ravee who indeed motivated me a lot!
He is a actuary. yeah! the only and only one actuary who is our lectureer!!!!
haha~ hats off to him! I already kinda of missing his teaching styles which sometimes bombarded with some vulgar words. hahahaha!
Now that he is leaving us due to some personal problem of him with the university. People with distinct characteristic are really hard to be communicated with? No, I don't think so! At least he has been kind enough to us =)

YEAH! one thing to add on:
today is my sister, Yoona's BIRTHDAY!!
omg omg! she has become prettier and prettier! hahaha xD (well, still lose my gf)
Happy birthday to you!! erm..
Cant wait to wait for ur new drama or new album!

HOME!

finally I am home againnnnn~~~~ <3

Allow me for being rude this time.

Please skip today's post if you are reading right now.
Today was nothing special.
I am just unleashing my anger here.
SKIP IT before you read through thank you.
It is inappropriate especially for gals.

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Oh please dear thief,
hereby I present u my middle fingers proudly. o0o
I wish u fall down and have ur ass kicked.

No matter how dire ur condition could be, it is always a sin for committing stealing, undeniably.
Being a thief make ur family and ancestors feel ashamed.
Shame on you, fucker.

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Today was supposedly a nice day, woke up in the morning with cold breeze and vehement spirit was roaring.
Dressed in formal, smartly, combed my hair, waiting to go interview.
Yet, ruined by a simple message which I feel myself hurt.
and hence, the whole day was just terrible.
Ended with my car battery being stolen and me stuck on the road under the scorching sun for almost 1 hour.

Yes, the interview seemed nice.
Let's keep the finger crossed so that I can successfully get my scholarship.
At least give me some motivation to carry on please?

o0o

Happy mother's day =)

Today is the first Sunday after the fraudulent general election in Malaysia which was full of deceitful tactics and astonishing 'magics'.

I had finally attended my very first rally on 08-05-2013 to mount for the dead of democracy in our country with almost 200k of people in Kelana Jaya Stadium. (omg such a memorable date)

Perhaps the event would be carved into everyone's mind as it represents the rises and awakening of people power.

It was indeed a indelible experience.

I took LRT and reached there at around 8 p.m.. not to mention I actually walked about few kilometres from LRT station to the stadium.

On the way to stadium, you could see schools of people in black inching their way to the stadium, all with same inspiration -- to assert our rights and democracy in our beloved country.

The heat intensified the nearer you are with the stadium. Shouts and shrieks of 'Reformasi' and 'Ubah' were non-stop. Everyone was ripping their throats to the maximum as if they had been driven into frenzy just hoping to contribute their thin voices to the crowd.

The warmth inside stadium was suffocating yet invigorating when you saw people from all races joined the rally despite the news that reported only Chinese joined.

Here you could learn how the media twisted the news and manipulated some pathetic populations in
Malaysia and it certainly earned your disdain towards the media.

The event achieved the climax when Lim Kit Siang and Anwar Ibrahim showed up on the stage.

It was really a touching moment!

They insisted on realizing their will to make Malaysia a better country which is free of corruption albeit they should be taking care of the grandchildren at the age like them.

Hats off to them! =)

Didn't finish listening to Anwar's talk as I had to rush back to LRT station which is miles away before 12 a.m.

There happened some chaos at the entrance as the entrance was too crowded and its small capacity cant afford the sudden leaving crowds.

Generally it was still under control =)

Malaysia! I love you! the road to democracy isn't easy! I will always stand along you!

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Besides Malaysia and girlfriend, LOL

I love my mother too. =)

Today is Mother's Day and I would like to take the chance to show my token of gratitude towards her.

Although we bicker over a lot of things a lot of time,

It is still an undeniable fact that I love you >.<
haha =)

It has been my luck being your son. 

Thank you for everything.

Thanks mum <3

<3

I love you. (I wouldn't say this face to face haha, because I am too shy to do that LMAO)

^__^

大选篇

大选日益逼近。
选情空前炽热。
选民火力全开。

5 月 5， 换政府 口号不绝于耳
哈哈，我是乐见其成啦。

纵观天下时势，民联似乎气势如虹，国阵则唯唯诺诺，貌似举步蹒珊。
然则兵法有云：
骄兵之计：
当敌人气势太盛，则略其锋而攻其钝。

而且，
民联的主要盘踞地分布在城市地区，资讯发达，人人可从网上获知大选选情，各个在网上吹擂打鼓，才得以营造出民联支持者较多的现象。
要知道，国阵的基本盘则是在马来乡下地区，村民本身受教育程度有限，无法区分是非，而且非常排斥民联。
他们不在网上发言，却是国阵的铁票，撼之不动。

这情形有好有坏。
至少证明了大马正逐渐向民主国家靠拢。
要知道，在美国，民主与共产党亦是各有支持者。
中下阶级偏向民主党，中上阶级则偏向共产党。
这是大马民主初步的构成。

不过大马仍无法真正建设性地突破民族的鸿沟。
一直都在灰色地带徘徊。
不过这都需要时间，假使过程太快，社会一时接受不来，引起反弹则得不偿失。

这一次是独立以来大选选情最胶着的一次。
说真的，我有点惭愧。
在网上读了一位朋友的留言，
虽然说我不够岁不能投票，不过我毕竟也没尽到应该履行的职责。
我右手有脚，理应去帮忙抓“鬼”。
因为，你知我知天知地知，
某某阵党最擅长的就是偷天换日，狸猫换太子，招魂等。
他们的庞大资源不可小觑。
只希望天有眼。


50 对 50 的胜率。
我在此诚心诚意地为马来西亚更美好的明天而祝福。
为了正在奋力作战的前线同志们而祝福。
=）
加油。


P/S : 身为柔州人，希望柔州这次能不负众望，领衔群州，成功掀起大海啸！
林伯加油！

久违

终于把我的电脑给载回来了。
很感动。
很久没在宿舍用我的电脑了。
至于今天干嘛想写 blog。
是因为明天要陪莉敏去听一个散文讲座。
心血来潮想抒发一下情绪。
而且突然间看到朋友写部落格
也想跟跟风 @@

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一直以来，
我都非常喜欢雨。
别问我原因，
我不知道。

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早晨

窗外  细雨淫淫，
滴滴。  答答。
拖着疲惫千金重的身躯，
抗拒着从床上爬起。
映入眼帘的是一片昏暗，
沉沉欲睡。
就如同一个身无隐蔽的裸女向你招手，引诱你犯罪。
这不见天日的昏暗也引诱着你继续沉沦在那温柔的梦里，不可自拔。
加上雨天所带来的那股凉意，
更显得我的抗拒十分幼稚可笑。

雨声依旧。
滴滴。答答。
终于，
梦醒人战胜自己，
跨着夸张如古代将军战胜敌人凯旋而归的步伐，
带着谈笑间，饮尽匈奴血的气势，
踏上一天的征途。
（子恒上学前奋斗史自白）

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大选将至，子恒将于此地明日起时时评论大选课题。
尽情期待。
哈哈哈哈 xD

时过境迁

刚刚到了附近的麦当劳吃午餐。
真的突然由衷觉得自己长大了。
看着一件件曾经穿在自己身上那熟悉的衣服（说真的，有点滑稽 xD）
看着一张张如此陌生年轻的脸庞
不禁唏嘘。
哈哈哈~
真的有种岁月不饶人之慨
 =(

大学第二年也已来到了尾声。
这一年的生活克说是灿烂缤纷。
从一开始到现在，都充斥着美好与痛苦的回忆。
哈哈哈

十天的假期就那样过了
明明带了一大本书回来。
结果一如既往，
他闭他的关，我闭我的。 =.=
啊哈哈哈，假期后的考试
希望老师放水 >.<"
要不然就呜呼哀哉咯 xD

It's been almost one week since I deactivated my fb account.
Haha, life still goes on.
Instead, I do feel much better. =)
And earn myself much more freedom and time.

Currently busy for incessant assignments and tests.
Oh ya, for your information, I would be performing a drama on the stage by tomorrow.
Though this whole-drama-stuffs were just a beautiful and wrongful coincidence which I had tackled with (is never actually my intention to join this event)
Well, is time for me to complete the responsibilities.
Hopefully, everything goes on smoothly ^__^

Life is again back to the track as usual after experiencing the first failure.
The moment you think of giving up, think of the reasons what have had hold you to come this far.
Subdue the disappointment.
Conquer it
And you shall be the BOSS.

So I fail the exam due to over confidence.
And I tell u that I could barely breath.
The strike is too massive.

So i deactivate Facebook for the ever first time.
Won't log in until I pass my next paper.
Disappointment creeps in at this moment.

So I just wish to be calm now.
Let bygone be bygone, hopefully.
Long for the sunshine after the creepy night.

So here I am.
A place I always used to come when I need a haven and hug.
Dear friends, I am gloomy now.

So officially,
The 'F' in Zi hern's dictionary is now synonymous with Fail.
Yes, F is no longer for fuck or fly or frog.
It is devoted to Fail.

=) well.
Just wanna to vent my emo-ness here.
It helps enlighten me a little bit.

=(
几时才能摆脱这次失败的阴影呢？
对不起爸妈
让你们失望
听到你责怪我没读书，真的很无言。
我也有用工啊。
我也不想 fail.. 只是轻敌了。
我知道考一张不便宜。
只能答应你们下一张我会更努力。
人生就是不停地奋斗嘛！
他妈的！ 一个 exam fail 算什么？
以后我还是赚多多 o0o

习惯了在高处看东西。
趁这一次跌倒又回到了地面上。
其实， 偶尔换换风景也不错。
^_^

跌倒了爬起来

@__@

明天如果让我  pass 我的 paper 的话
我吃一天斋
good luck!!!
我想吃斋啊！！！  T.T
haha xD

back

Am back to UM.

Officially finished celebrating my Chinese New Year after loitering around at so many friend's house playing LAME mindfuck games and some TRADITIONAL CHINESE NEW YEAR CARD GAMES. lol

Honestly, not to suck up to you guys.

Secondary friends really meant the most to me among my friends. 

And secondary life is really the best moment I been experiencing in my whole life.

I could really speak what I want to speak which is different with now which I could only speak after my mind filters the words and decides which statements are appropriate to be aired out and which are not.

Hope that this 团拜 would be our annual traditions until we all grow older and older.

Appreciate you guys. =)

Take care in respective uni.

We would see soon ya. ^__^

enjoy ur uni life too! I am pretty sure that it would gonna be all of your irrevocable memories too!

New sem new target!

gotta be a hardworking people!

(though I ended up playing and sleeping and idling on the bed whole day since I reached lol)

I promise I would start preparing for my external paper tomorrow! xD

JUST SUDDENLY

JUST all of sudden, I miss Taiwan very much T.T

haha =)

SEE this!
The cloud and the scene!
This is the place I love the most!
ARGGGHHH!!

破天荒

现在不应该出现在这里的我出现在这里。
而明天还有两张 PAPER.
可想而知，
是因为有值得纪念的事情发生了。

我‘破天荒’地面临我漫长人生中的第一次 FAIL

哈哈

我不会怪谁，只能怪自己不争气。 =（
真的很 EMO
不过，
不管怎样，
明天还有两张 PAPER =）
考完了后就把一切丢掉

去玩个够吧
下个 SEM 再来努力！

这个 SEM 的成绩单就拿来当作旧报纸回收  
丢掉！


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ZI HERN HAS JUST BEEN PAWNED BY INTEREST THEORY DERIVATIVES
T.T
R.I.P
See you in next sem.